est. august 2015
mcu-based, independent, selective
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☣ | GWEN

          sometimes, just sometimes, she wishes she didn’t know
          him so well. it would be so much easier to accept the
          careful composure he’s crafted, all easy smiles & big
          brown doe eyes. life would be made SIMPLER, less
          complicated.

                                   (gwen’s not really a fan of complicated.)

          but this is PETER PARKER and no matter what, she
          cannot help but examine him, study the line of his mouth
          and the curve of his jaw. she can only continue to inspect
          the way brunette crown blends into tousled strands that
          curl over his ears — the way it does when he NEEDS a
          haircut, or he’s forgotten what a comb is for — and the
          manner in which he holds himself. she can’t stop herself
          from wanting to REMIND him of his posture and she
          certainly can’t think to retract the hand that’s somehow,
          unconsciously, breached the divide and brushed a speck
          of dirt from his cheek. maybe from a rooftop he’d lingered
          too long on, or a spot he’d missed when washing his face.

          NOTHING about him escapes her; every little particle of
          his being is magnified tenfold, intensified by rose-coloured
          lenses she views him through.

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          so she frowns, just so, when he says he’s okay. because
          she knows what okay means and she knows, when blues
          — broken pieces of the manhattan sky on a sunny day —
          meet browns, that okay isn’t there.

                                             oh, how she wishes it was.

          she won’t say a thing though, because she’s GWEN STACY
          and they’ve been broken up for weeks now and it’s felt like
          MONTHS and it’s been a knife twisting in her gut. she’ll
          weather the storm like she always has and shake her head
          politely, serene as an angel & sweet as one, too.

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                    ❛   not right now, NO.   ❜

          and before she can think better of it, before BRAINS can
          beat heart, she’s turned on her heel. sneakered feet —
          battered white converse to match his — carry her forward
          one pace and then ANOTHER before she’s allowed herself
          a backwards glance, loquacious & warm behind a fringe of
          spun gold.   ❛                       you coming?   ❜

           CHANCE seems to find him entertaining, because it threw him
           under one autumn morning, in a busy street near Main, about
           one-hundred-and-one different things for a couple to do within
           his reach: and he managed to find HER out of all of this.

           Familiar hands touch his face, an almost-instinct ready for her
           to cup his cheek before she pulls away, brushing off some
           grime leftover from his latest adventure in a back-alley heist.

           He can sense the boundary start to blur when skin brushes against
           skin, nimble fingers gracing flushed cheeks. The line is growing
           hazier in his vision as she steps back and turns on her heel. She
           leaves an imprint where exactly she stopped, her tiny gesture an
           open invitation to go ahead and try to pick the APPLE off its branches.

           He pauses, wide-eyed gaze staring back at him, her sweet disposition
           taking a pickaxe to the wall he is frantically trying to rebuild for his own
           SANITY. It hurts, to physically stay put where he is, a greedy child that
           has been punished for getting into trouble one too many times. He looks
           down at old jeans and mud-stained converse, imagining what it feels
           like to step forward, walking pace by pace besides her own worn-out
           sneakers, reaching out one brave, callus hand to take HERS, showing off
           a dopey smile only ever reserved for her

                                                        (   Stop it.  )

           He stares back at emerald hues, framed by a perfect head of GOLDEN
           hair that he can’t ever forget the geography of. He soon realizes she’s
           waiting, standing where she is just so he can play keep-up.

           A stone plummets in his stomach, silently sinking to the bottom.

                          (   How long ‘til I stop holding her back?   )

           It feels like a gunshot wound, some bleeding excuse to talk in deep,
           soft tones of finality and severance when he ponders to answer.

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                      ❝      I - I don’t know. I don’t think it’s — appropriate.    ❞

           Because he’s been one to talk about what’s APPROPRIATE,

            Like times when he’s showed up to her family dinners in tattered jeans,
            or skateboarding in the school hallways to get to her locker faster,
            or even times when he’s shown up at her window with an unplanned trip
            to the roof of the Empire State Building: keeping her up way past her
            curfew for a hundred different reasons.

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          Now he really can’t help himself, because he’s smirking without even
          realizing it. It’s a warm, bashful emotion that graces both cheekbones,
          swelling up in his eyes, HAZEL HUES glowing with curiosity when he
          stares back at her. It’s easy when it’s PETER PARKER: admittedly easier
          when it’s GWEN STACY. He can tell, just from the glint in her gaze, the
          smallest tinge of a smile playing at her lips: she’s thinking about
          it too.

         He laughs, and for once it doesn’t feel like despair on chains.

                   ❝      I guess it wouldn’t kill me. What’d you have in mind?      ❞  

         He steps up, matching pace with her steps once he’s firmly crossed
         the line that has promptly faded.

                               (     It’s only coffee. Or lunch —
                                     whatever, it doesn’t matter.
                                     That’s it. Nothing else.
                                     You can do this much, Parker.
                                     Is it even time for lunch yet?    )

         He concedes,
         Gwen Stacy WINS round 1.

#chemistacy  #[ RP | PARA ]  #[ V | WITH GREAT POWER ]  #//tbh this was supposed to be shorter whoops  

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