est. august 2015
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☣ | GWEN

        It’s the same thing once again–the same fight they have had
        over these past few months. Eyes watch as he paces back &
        forth trying to find the right words to day–but she can already
        assume what is going to come out of his mouth. Lips thin as
        she takes a few steps closer to him. 

        Gently, she raises her hands to his face; placing one on each
        cheek in hopes of locking her gaze with his own. to offer some
        sort of peace to his turmoil. 

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             ❝ –Peter. You can’t keep doing this
               to yourself. To us. Even if my father
               was here–this isn’t his choice. ❞

He places heavy, guilt-ridden palms on hers, laying
          his forehead on her own. He can feel a part of his
          rib-cage fall apart and re-stitch itself over and
          over again. She is a reprieve he never deserved.

          He stares into a pool of emerald, hazel hues looking
          for some sort of forgiveness from beyond. He is
          counting the number of times he has done this,
          a terrible habit that grips him, letting a ghost dictate his
          actions, before running right back like a sad dog.

         He wants to kiss her without the poison,
         hold her without the walls closing in,
         Love her without a car crash
         waiting around the corner.

         He wants to give up the ghost so badly.

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                   ❝ – That’s it, Gwen. He isn’t here.
                     That’s my fault. All of it. I own that.  ❞

         He takes her hands and folds them over, untangling
         them with such care that you would believe they
         were made of precious porcelain.

        He steps back, a finality in his heel that makes him tremble
        with fear, a look of torment stitched across his face
        when he has to physically distance himself before
        he can cave again and again and again.

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                     ❝     I – I’m a walking disaster.  I can’t…
                         I can’t let anything happen to you too.     ❞

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